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After All This Time

  • 01. After All This Time
  • 02. Weight of the World
  • 03. The Sacrifice
  • 04. Angels
  • 05. Wake Me Up (If I Dream)
  • 06. A Martyr's Curse
  • 07. Violet
  • 08. Losing You
  • 09. 6 Feet
  • 10. The Scientist

Lyrics by Rei Haycraft, Music by Brandon Mullin and Rei Haycraft. Copyright 2015, all rights reserved. Click on the song titles on the right to view lyrics!

LYRICS
After All This Time
I've been here
Some time before
I'm still knocking at your door
Expecting an answer

And I'm still waiting
For a change
I'm still locked inside this cage
Expecting redemption

Darling, I'm waiting
For you to come back home
And awaken me
Awaken me...

I've been here a thousand times
I'm still racing through the whys
Expecting a reason
and I'm still hoping it's a lie
I'm praying for a sign
Expecting to see you

I can't go on like this
I hate all I've become
I'm desperately praying
You'll never be alone
I can't go on like this
I'm just an empty shell
I'll always be waiting
Please save me from myself
And awaken me
Awaken me...

Weight of the World
Whisper secrets
In the darkness
Sweetest torture
You confide

It's no wonder
All the bloodshed
Plagues your dreams and
Hides the light

Yet you look to me
To become your everything...
And I can't —

If you really loved me
You'd let me go
You'd let me fall
Let me lose control
Try to hold me back
Chain me, pull me down
It's the weight of the world
And it's got me...
Bound.

Prey on weakness
No repentance
Guilt too heavy
To deny.

Lying heartless,
Yet remorseless,
No redemption
For your crimes.

If you really loved me
You'd let me go
You'd let me fall
Let me lose control
Try to hold me back
Chain me, pull me down
It's the weight of the world
And it's got me...
Bound.

Are we to blame for what has
Befallen us and our world?
Can we be redeemed from this hate,
Our solemn fate in our darkest hour...

If you really loved me
You'd let me go
You'd let me fall
Let me lose control
Try to hold me back
Chain me, pull me down
It's the weight of the world
And it's got me...
Bound.
The Sacrifice
I'll miss the winter,
the fragile heart of things,
I'll miss the forest and the way
we used to sing.
There's no escaping
the darkness drawing near,
'Til all that's left
is the memory of fear.

I can feel it coming on the wind,
oh, how it grieves,
The heavens are starting to bleed, for me...

I'm not your sacrifice,
no, not now.
I'm not the one to pay the price for your power.
Is it worth my innocence,
just to see me bleed?
Your masochistic ritual
will be complete,
Through me.

I'll miss the colors,
the autumn most of all,
I'll miss your smile,
I don't wanna be your fall.
The fields are burning,
the end is drawing nigh,
Though I could save us,
I don't want to die...

I'm not your sacrifice,
no, not now.
I'm not the one to pay the price
for your power.
Is it worth my innocence,
just to see me bleed?
Your masochistic ritual
will be complete...

I'm not your sacrifice...
I'm not the one to pay your price...
Is it worth my innocence,
just to see me bleed?
Your masochistic ritual will be...
complete...

Angels
Angel always
never falling
Heaven calling
I reach for something
Sweet surrender
splendor fading
Hate invading
I bleed for nothing.

How can I trust my heart to lead me
When all that I knew was a lie?
What good is a god who loses strength
Who loses faith
who loses time?

Why can't I feel?
It's not the awful games you play,
It's the way you shift the blame, oh honey.
Why can't I heal?
It's not the heartache all around,
It's my halo slipping down.

But I'm not kind...
To leave you here behind.

My wings are broken,
bruised and battered,
'Til all is shattered,
I will dream of nothing.
You games are over,
you played the martyr,
But now I'm smarter,
I will bleed for something.

How can I trust my heart to lead me
When all that I knew was a lie?
What good is a god who loses strength
Who loses faith
who loses time?

Why can't I feel?
It's not the awful games you play,
It's the way you shift the blame, oh honey.
Why can't I heal?
It's not the heartache all around,
It's my halo slipping down.

You thought that I'd understand
All the blood on your hands.
You won't see your penance earned
Until I take your heart
And watch it burn.

I'm not the kind...
No, I'll put you out of my mind.

Why can't I feel?
It's not the awful games you play
It's the way you shift the blame, oh honey.
Why can't I heal?
It's not the heartache all around,
It's my halo slipping down.

Why can't I feel?
I won't be the one to take the blame
I won't be the one to say your name, oh honey.
Why can't I heal?
It's not the memories at the door
You're just not worth dying for.
Wake Me Up (If I Dream)
With my heart left in the dark
Will you be the lonely spark?
To set fire to my veins?
And leave passion in its place
Oh, you know how I dream
Will my nightmares comfort me?
Though I cannot drown the pain
Can you wash it all away?

Wake me up if I dream
Visions haunt my every memory
Wake me up if you're real
I can't live within the pain
Can you wish it all away?

Though I've long tried to deny
The emptiness inside
Come to curse my every thought
And leave shadows in the dark
It won't matter if I scream
It won't bring you back to me
Though I cannot stop the pain
Can you burn it all away?

Wake me up if I dream
Visions haunt my every memory
Wake me up if you're real
I can't live within the pain
Can you wish it all away?
Can you wish it all away?
Can you wish it all...

Wake me up if I dream
Visions haunt my every memory
Wake me up if you're real
I can't live within the pain
Can you wish it all away?
A Martyr's Curse
Too late, can we avoid this?
Could I have seen the signs?
Thought I could keep you safe
From the fire
The bloodshed in this nightmare
Are we, ourselves to blame?
What could we ever do
To deserve these flames?

I'm not strong enough to lose
The only love I ever knew
If you fall softly to the night
You know I won't follow far behind

Wrapped up in sweet denial
Ignored the light in you
Couldn't the spirits find
Someone else to choose
I know you see their torment
You tried to ease the pain
But with this wretched end
What is left to gain?

I'm not strong enough to lose
The only love I ever knew
If you fall softly to the night
You know I won't follow far behind

A thousand hearts lonely lost
Avenge you despite the cost
If I gave my dying breath
Would it light your way?

No turning back
Stand by everything I love
The hands of fate
Crushing silence
cannot break our bond Or separate our love

I'm not strong enough to lose
The only love I ever knew
If you fall softly to the night
My love, I won't follow far behind

Violet
Can't get your smell
off my skin.
Can't get the blood
out of the carpet.
My heart is tainted
by your touch,
You took my everything,
why wasn't that enough?

You didn't spare my life,
You stole it from me.
Cruel to kill me, crueler still...
Crueler still to let me live.

Draw the blinds,
hide the light,
Can't get your voice
out of my mind.
I feel your breath on my neck,
And I know that you'll come for me again.

This heavy heart, never to heal
Can't wash away, the blood remains
With violet wrists I'm bound to keep
The hate you left with me
Flowing through my veins

You didn't spare my life,
You stole it from me
Cruel to kill me, crueler still...
Crueler still to let me live.

You didn't spare my life,
You stole it from me.
Cruel to kill me, crueler still...
Crueler still...

Losing You
The cold autumn dew
drips a melody
Softly singing
the words of your memory
I know the voices have just come
to keep me sane
I know the choices I've made
will lead me back to
Where you hide
Lost inside...

I can't breathe,
I can't scream
when I'm lost in you
I can't imagine what would happen
if I never knew
Please don't wander too far
for I can't find my
Way through losing, losing you...

I followed your shadows
into the mist
I thought I saw you
but they say you don't exist
I know the angels will cry
when they hear the news
That I've looked everywhere
but I can't find you
Where you hide
Oh, you can't hide...

I can't breathe,
I can't scream
when I'm lost in you
I can't imagine what would happen
if I never knew
Please don't wander too far
for I can't find my
Way through losing, losing you...

So go on and sing,
sing to me
You know I can hear you
Go go on and scream,
scream to me
You know I still hear you
I hear you, oh...
I hear you...

I can't breathe,
I can't scream
when I'm lost in you
I can't imagine what would happen
if I never knew
Please don't wander too far
for I can't find my
Way through losing, losing you...
6 Feet
Autumn leaves fall
outside her windowpane
She wonders if she'll live
to see them again
She loves him, but she knows
it can never be
She wonders,
"will he still love me when I'm..."

6 feet underground,
Will you know where
to find me?
Yesterday is dust
and tomorrow won't come,
I want to see the sun
One more time before I go,
6 feet below.

Autumn rain falls
upon his tear-soaked face
He's racing time
just to see her again
He's running, he's scared,
and he says "baby, wait for me!
You know that I will always
love you, even..."

6 feet underground,
Don't you know that's where
you'll find me?
Yesterday is gone
but eternity will come.
Baby, I will be your sun,
And I'll never let you go,
6 feet below.

Always, forever
We will be together
Always, forever
We will be...

6 feet underground
Don't you know that's where
you'll find us?
Yesterday is gone
but eternity will come
Baby, I will be your sun
and I'll never let you go...
6 feet below.
The Scientist
Should have known better than
To follow you
Even though the rain
was beating to my bones
and all I wanted
was out of the cold

I know i'm too naive
To think of things
Like anything I can't see
You seemed an honest man
How could I know
Everything you'd plan?

Everything you'd plan?
Everything you'd plan?

You're nothing
but a scientist
And I'm nothing
but your experiment
Autopsy my beating heart
Test tubes
Full of things
Like diamond rings
And used up affection
You hope will get you
Through the night
And help you find
The secret of love
Whoa, whoa...
The secret of love...

Mixing and bubbling
Almost ready
Drink it down, girl
Let's see how much
She can take
Does this make
The right potion
The bodies on the floor
The ones before
That didn't quite make it
Seems I'm your guinea pig
Using me to find
The perfect combination

The perfect combination
The perfect combination

You're nothing
but a scientist
And I'm nothing
but your experiment
Autopsy
My beating heart
Test tubes
Full of things
Like diamond rings
And used up affection
You hope will get you
Through the night
And help you find
The secret of love
Whoa, whoa...
The secret of love...

You're nothing
but a masochist
And I'm done with
Done with all of this
You can't have
My beating heart
Test tubes
Full of things
Like diamond rings
And used up affection
Won't help you get
Through the night
You'll never find
The secret of love
Whoa, whoa...
The secret of love...